so i have decided to finally do something in life and that something
is im gonna try to be gone by next week out to Vegas/Henderson Nevada.
I'm done with cali and hopefully by next weekend i will have my bus
ticket to go out to my aunts and start looking for a job, even though i
have applied at a few places out there already haha, but ya i hope it
will be happening and on the documentary i was supposed to be filming,
the guy called me the other day saying that his editor cant you any
footage from my camera cause its better then his and it will make it
look weird or some dumb shit.... i don't know but he has been saying
some smart ass comments lately and its been pissing me off and reminding
me of my previous work experience with another supposed film maker, and
i just had enough and said fuck you and fuck this i don't need you for
anything. and also he pisses me off even more with his lack of owning
thing to try and making a movie, its like really dude your a supposed
film maker and you don't even have a fucking camera or lights or a
computer for editing. what the fuck, im trying to do the same thing and i
invested in what i want to do. why don't you, you fucking dick, and im
not saying i hate anyone who doesn't have anything im saying if you
think your the shit and badass and all that bullshit, why the fuck
haven't you bought your own camera? huh i mean you can buy decent ones
for like 200 bucks shit and just do like everyone else does and torrent
software to edit with. and when you start making some money then be a
nice guy and buy the product that you torrented. but i guess that's just
how i think i mean i guess some people are all about being moochers and
that shit and think everything should be handed to them cause oh they
made a idea for a movie. i think that is stupid as shit if you want to
be a film maker you should have some of the basic stuff like a camera
and a editing program or at least have a partner that you can depend on
that you always work with that has some of it thats fine too but dont
come up to a complete stranger that you had never met and then be a dick
and think all my shit is now your shit, i dont fucking know you. who
the fuck do you think you are to demand me around like that? you are not
fucking god and your are technically not my boss since really you dont
need me for anything as you put it, but yet you still want to try and
order me around fuck you.
Man it amazes me how some people are,
maybe i was brought up different but i would never ever be such a dick
to a person i have never met like that, sure i might be quiet and seem
dickish but if we actually talk and what not you will see im a ok guy im
not gonna be like oh hey can you do this or that or blah blah and give
me this and that. no i wont i dont like asking for that type of stuff,
sure i will post shit where it seems like i want you too with like a
camera but come on its a joke cause it has happend once before where
there like i will buy you this or whatnot (and it was something cheap
not like a new camera or what not) and i told the person no no no i was
kidding i can buy it myself i just wanted to show what i wanted online
for people to see and pretty much be like hey look at this item that i
will most likely buy soon, isnt it cool? wouldnt you like to buy this
for me haha, im just joking i will get it myself..............ok im
getting lost in what im typing i had a brain fart for a sec..........
but so ya im pretty pissed of at the this who i dont even know cause of a
few thing he said to me and i just didnt like and maybe im over
reacting? i dont think i am cause i have dealt with this before and it
was not fun and i mean i went with it alot longer then this time cause
im a nice guy and i was like sure lets do this i want to make a movie
blah blah but after that first time it fucked me up to the world and now
im like oh you want to be like this and make it hard or be stupid or
what not then fuck that shit, suck my dick im down with trying to work
with incompetent people who really have no damn clue as what they are
trying to do. and hey maybe thats what making a movie is like? i dont
know but for me its not like that a director/filmmaker (or a least a low
budget/no budget director/filmmaker) should have all the thing need to
make his movie in the first place and not have to rely on others to have
stuff for him, now if he has the main stuff that is needed and someone
bring more to the set and can be used that is fine then i will work with
this person but if you are like oh hey i have nothing but you do some
come pick me up and do what i want you to do with out even talking to
you first to see if your ok about it, then that is where im like nope i
wont work with you if you think cause you might have that name over you
that i will listen to you and be like oh yes master i will do what you
want master please whip me harder so i work hard master then fuck no i
aint nobodys bitch or slave
ok so ya this rant might be
crazy and i might have lost track a few times and hell it might not
even make sense? i dont know im just basically letting my emotions out
on a place where people i know in life like my mom for example wont come
to me and be like oh hey blah blah blah so i decided i will put it here
and probably my blogspot and just let my emotions out. to tell you the
truth i dont give a flying fuck if anyone reads it cause it is long but i
at least know i posted this somewhere to remind me never to let someone
use me again like in the past cause as it keeps happening its making me
a worse person and if it keeps happening i might become someone else
that i never thought i would be. but ya that is what this rant is about
so if you actually read this thanks and wow i dont know why you would
want to read this long winded most likey terribly written rant
haha........so im done good night and fuck your mother and tell her i
like what she did last night hehe j/k
